seriously?

life is out of control.

i'm having major trust issues right now with my dad. i can't figure out if he's manipulating me or not. i feel like i'm being put in the middle of my parents again. every ounce of me wants to give him the benefit of the doubt and trust him. however, i can't be hurt again. my mom is just looking out for me [and i finally figured that out as of last night]. it's just the craziest situation. personally i do NOT need this right now. especially with a huge paper due by 5 on Thursday [that i have yet to start typing]. i just couldn't think about anything else. all that has happened in the last 12 or so hours has completely got me distracted [more so than i usually am].

life is out of control