i'm in one of those moods again. it comes randomly, quick, and it's hateful. i dealt a lot with bitterness towards my dad, and didn't really start dealing with it [to rid myself of it] until about 3 years ago. bitterness is hard. it seeps in where you don't even realize it, and it takes hold of your heart and it suffocates you...
i feel the bitterness creeping in this time. i know the way it feels, and i know the signs. and it's here. and it's not easy. this bitterness is not at my dad... okay well maybe a little bit. but it comes from all that's going around me. the loss. the death. the pain. the hurt. i'm mad about it... but i am mad at my dad too. the bitterness towards him is like a roller coaster, but it comes out of no where. it's like the sudden left, when you think you're about to go right. the bitterness took hold of my heart in the past 3 weeks...
my mind is numb.
i told my mom i was just going to stop caring. that it was easier. but i don't think it is.
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