redeeming love...

i've been so broken lately. confused. frustrated. worthless.

i feel back into this place i thought i had walked away. i thought i was fighting it too, but really i just gave up. still, foolishly, begging God to just stop loving me. i felt so unworthy, and like i couldn't go on. i was not finding hope anywhere.

there's a blog i've been following for awhile... i just happened to stumble upon it last year. it's Todd Smith from Selah wife's blog. it's amazing. there was a song on the blog yesterday that completely broke me, but gave me hope all at the same time. it was unreal. i put the lyrics below... and if you want to listen to the song you should go here the song is called Unredeemed... it will change your life.

Unredeemed
The cruelest words
The coldest heart
The deepest wounds
The endless dark
The lonely ache
The burning tears
The bitter night
The wasted years
Life breaks and falls apart
But we know these are…
Places
Where grace is
Soon to be so amazing
They may unfulfilled
They may unrestored
But when anything that’s shattered
Is laid before the Lord
Just watch and see
It will not be
Unredeemed
For every choice
That led to shame
And all the love
That never came
For every vow
That someone broke
And every life
That gave up hope
We live in the shadow of the fall
But the cross says these are all – just
Places
Where grace is
Soon to be so amazing
They may unfulfilled
They may unrestored
But when anything that’s shattered
Is laid before the Lord
Just watch and see
It will not be
Unredeemed
They may unfulfilled
They may unrestored
You never know the miracles
The father has in store
Just watch and see
It will not be
Unredeemed

i need the Lord's redeeming love now more than ever i think...