freaking out

so i painted my house all day today with two of my very best friends. it was a blast.

around 5 p.m. my cell rings, and steph picks up to tell me it's a branson number. tosses me the phone, and i answer. it's a lady from the Kanakuk Institute.

i got accepted.

i was immediately real excited.

now i'm panicking.

completely freaking out.

i have no idea why. my mind is just reeling.

sometimes i'm unsure, and i don't know if it's God moving me in a different direction, or Satan telling me that i'm incapable.

good grief i'm scared.

this was not the type of emotion i was suspecting when i finally heard the news.

dang